Baby Talk

My wife and I have been having talking lately about having a baby. Actually its been more her than me. I don't know what's stopping me from wanting to have a kid. I've been throwing around excuses for some time now such as there's no point in raising a child in a world where there will be no social security available to him/her by the time he/she is our age. I'm not certain if we could afford to have a kid. Let's face it, I don't have the highest paying job and I barely get by with what I'm left with. How can I expect to raise a kid with the mere pennies I'm left with each month? There's also the Peter Pan complex to consider too. I'm just an immature going on 36 years old adult. I still watch cartoons and I race home to see whats new in Asian cinema online. My priorities as you can see are not all there.

I want to make an attempt to change not just for myself but for my wife and yes one day for a kid. My wife though is right at that time where if we don't have a kid now, we're taking risks later.

I look at my friend who I went to visit during the holidays. He's pretty much like me: an overgrown infant with a wife that wishes he would do more constructive things with his time. They raised a child in a small basement apartment along with her mother in law living with them at the same time. He pretty much told me, "If we can do it, you can surely raise a kid."

I found his words most encouraging. His philosophy is that you find ways to get by and when your child needs something, there's no way you won't be able to provide for him/her. I can tell there's a little friction when they talk about household matters but you can see they truly love each other and they truly love their daughter who is adorable. Someone else told me that its a small portion of you and a portion of your partner that you love dearly and that culminates into someone you will treasure.

OK...that's enough of the corniness for now. There are no guarantees in life so who knows whats in store. For all I know we just may end up with another dog.